Ouch. Again, not dealing with the real issue.

Church is a refuge for broken hearts and a training ground for mighty warriors. I struggle to attend weddings or funerals or any type of church function as well. At 29 years old, I was ordained and sent out by that church to pursue God’s call on my life to pastor by writing and speaking. Sadly, it is the most impersonal church we’ve ever attended. As a pastor, that is what I am called to do even when people throw rocks and want to kill me.

I got to confess, this post is a bit of a miss for me. I have always believed in the church, and while I have vigorously pursued to stay active in one, I find that my stamina to tolerate “the business” of ministry and the attacks of people are simply not within my younger capabilities. I believe that I have to love myself properly before I am able to love someone else and sometimes loving yourself enough to walk away is the best decision. If you’re in this boat with us, trying to find a church home – not a perfect church – but one who shares important doctrinal values and a methodology consistent with the way God has wired you, you are not alone. As a family, we committed to being involved in a church in a new city and have done so for some time, however, a number of issues have limited our full commitment, (denominational speaking engagements that require being out of town on the weekends and often evenings), but most particularly for me as a mother to daughters is that the church has been sitting on making a decision on women in leadership for over a decade, prior even to our being at this church. Thank Eventually more home churches will pave the Way as the Church will survive and thrive despite man’s efforts to make it a corporation. To me the church gas become an activities center.

And in stepping forward found the church that I was involved in said, ” No, We don’t need you.” or just as bad… “We don’t see how we can use your talents.”

I’m with you. I need you to be there. I enjoy the teaching of Kenneth Copeland, Dr. Saddiki, TD Jakes and Andrew Wommack, to name a few.

I pray you find a niche for your gifts and a church home where you feel welcomed. 2 God is in charge and Christ on the throne. Seems like new people = help, but if nobody knows what needs to be done, how to get the training, who can give the training, who can give the authorization, etc. God has put so many wonderful evangelistic ideas in my head. In fact, look at what God’s people in the Old Testament were called out for in addition to idolatry, and look at the mission Paul cast for the church,… and lay those details down beside the actions of the church today…. Talk to me about a Jesus who made more wine at a party where the attendees were already drunk, and he made more of the good stuff! Grateful that God’s grace is daily experienced through it all.

There are so awful, mean, manipulative and conniving leaders out there who are extremely self-centered and narcissistic. God usually works through human means, and that puts obligations on the worship leader and the worshipping people. So now, if he asks me anything, I just say, ” pastor, you’ll just have to figure it out on your own and see what happens.” And he is fine with that.